What is Pellucid?

In 2020 I published Something’s Not Right: Decoding the Hidden Tactics of Abuse and Freeing Yourself From Its Power. It’s based on my personal experiences in abusive situations and on my doctoral research on tactics used by Christian organizations in the wake of a scandal.

In 2021 I left my full-time job in higher education to focus on writing and consulting. I started this publication to cast light on how individuals and institutions use strategies of deception to perpetuate and cover-up abusive behavior. Readers are given insights to help them see through the fog of abusive dynamics. Posts also present ways in which we can promote safety, empowerment, transparency, and repair.

All posts are accessible to everyone. To make that accessibility possible, and to allow for the time it takes to produce new content, I rely upon the support of paid subscribers. Paid subscribers can choose a $5/month plan, $50/year plan, or any yearly amount above $50/year as additional support. I send occasional updates about current and future projects to paid supporters.

Posts are delivered as they are completed, usually once every week or two. You won’t have to worry about missing anything if you are a free or paid subscriber as every new edition of the newsletter will go directly to your inbox.

Pellucid is an adjective that means admitting maximum passage of light without diffusion or distortion.1 It is also used to describe something that is easy to understand. It’s my hope that the confusion and secrecy that pervades abusive and toxic stories - narratives controlled by abusive individuals and institutions - will be transformed into pellucid stories written by those who have been freed to write the next chapter of their lives.

What Type of Content Can You Expect?

I write about the ways in which individuals and institutions use strategies of deception to perpetuate and cover-up abusive behavior. I do not believe most people are out to trap us and deceive us, yet those who are can inflict trauma, betrayal, and lasting damage on individuals and communities. While the content can be difficult to read at times, I hope it will assist in creating a safer future. I also write about ways in which individuals and institutions can act with transparency and promote safety.

I also hope my writing on the topic of the hidden tactics of abuse will be easy to understand so that you will be able to see an abusive situation more clearly and, as a result, become more empowered to advocate for yourself and others.

Most of my writing focuses on Christian contexts because it has been the sphere of my own personal experience, my professional work, and most of my research and advocacy. However, many of the concepts are applicable to other contexts in which there is interpersonal deception and abuse. I try to write with this in mind so that it’s easier for readers from other contexts to apply the material.

Where Can You Find More Content?

Something’s Not Right can be purchased wherever books are sold. Paperback, audio, and digital copies are available.

I have a website where you can access some recommended resources along with recordings of interviews, talks, and a link to a downloadable copy of my dissertation.

You can also find me on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook.

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Casting light and promoting renewal for those combating deception and abuse.


Author of "Something's Not Right: Decoding the Hidden Tactics of Abuse and Freeing Yourself from Its Power."